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Testimony of Francois |
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My name is Francois. Since I was a young child I have wondered what life is all about. Why was I here on earth? What was I to live for? However, I found no guidance or answer to these questions that satisfied my inner need. So I started to “rebel” against the establishment, the “normal” way of life and church. I started drinking, taking and transporting drugs and many other things to try and escape the conflict I felt inside. I cannot put my finger on what the conflict was all about but I disliked myself, rebelled against the way I was brought up, even knowingly walked away from God. I became a heroin addict and also very depressed. I went from rehab to rehab, relapsing time and again. The sense of failure and the emptiness inside was just too much to live a sober life. Many times I was arrested and placed in the cell of a police station. On one such occasion the court ordered me to a rehab yet again, then from rehab I heard about Alon farm. Coming to a Christian community in September 2006 where God is served in a real way has been a big challenge for my ill-disciplined lifestyle. But the discipleship, love and help I have received has enabled me to face a host of issues I kept inside. Also my ‘clever’ reasoning had to go to the cross and die. As I submitted myself to His ways God has released my emotions and mind from captivity. Seeing that my own ways were destructive I’ve decided to live for Him, this is the only way for me to find a life worth living. From once being a lost cause and without hope, Jesus has given me a life of abundance. I now teach Mathematics at the Blue Mountain College here and do irrigation work on the farm. I have also been trained to do carpentry work, metal work, painting, being a waiter in the restaurant, making chandeliers and working in the kitchen during functions. I love the work I do and find joy in just being alive and free. |